if only our time together was not so short 😢

Today, Dec 1st was the day Henry and I pledged our love and committed to be together for life.

We were very happy and loved a lifetime's worth for 9 1/2 years.
He retired, moved here, married me, all on this day. So many memories flood my mind. I miss him so much, my heart aches.

The tears fall from the knowledge that he will never hold my hand again. I will never feel his arms around me or hear the sound of his voice, hear the music he played for me and I can't help feeling that I lost a part of myself when he died.

I don't know if I will ever feel whole again. I am trying to do the best that I can each and every day.

I am so glad I had a good day yesterday, I didn't have time to think about what was coming today. I didn't have to deal with the emptiness because my day was full of fun and laughter.

I spoke with my friend Heidi this morning. I had one moment that I started to tear up, but I was determined not to cry and not start talking about what today was...If I had, I would have fallen down a very deep hole.

I have to find something to occupy my mind today. I can't sit here and think about what was and never will be again.

Dec 01, 2023 10:41:41am