Self care is a must. We need to take a break from the world around us, including people.

Although I still checked fb, I wasn't really engaging much at all. I probably won't either. Too much disappointment and sadness.

As I read some cries for help from fellow grieving spouses, I am continuing to confirm my own thoughts and struggles. It is a path only I can walk alone. The ones who do offer words of wisdom, love, support, Thank you.

When it is your turn to go through this struggle, remember what you did to help someone, not just me, to get through this most horrifyingly overwhelming time in your life. If you haven't, well maybe you should really think about that.

I think back to the times I was there for someone that lost their spouse. I am sure there were times I could have done more. Had I known this misery then, I would have done more.

I took up collections for those who lost their spouses with no income and no insurance. I collected food and other things if needed. I helped with serving food for the wake. I have issues in funeral homes, not being able to do that most of the time and never on my own, I do things that help in different ways.

I am not saying this for a pat on the back, I am saying that I did what I thought I could do. Maybe I could have done more, I don't know. Every situation is different.

As I look back at the people who lost loved ones, I realize I wasn't there for them because they had big families and gatherings that kept them busy. Thinking I would just be in the way or that the family needed their time together. When I did reach out they either didn't have time or didn't answer so I didn't reach out again.

I guess I am just as guilty as the ones who do nothing at all. For that I am sorry.

I think social media has taken away the personal touch. We all jump on the feed and offer condolences and that's the end of it. We are inundated with constant posts that pushes our thoughts and cares to the sidelines.

I forgive you and myself for the lack of presence in each other's lives. We have given ourselves to the social media giants instead of to each other in a personal way. How sad that really is.

Dec 05, 2023 11:13:58am