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There is the GOOD, as well as the BAD and the UGLY part of life. But it seems like the BAD seems to be what you focus on. So far, I have written only about the BAD things that happened. Now for the GOOD! The days after my husband's death are a blur. However, some things did happen that were very GOOD, very heartwarming and supportive. I was attacked on Facebook by his family...bad for sure. But the GOOD was the support I received from most of my friends and my family. They rose up and defended me, knowing that these things they said were untrue. I am so grateful for those who fought for me and lifted me up at that horrible time. Months later after I recovered, I planned a Celebration of life...again attacked by his family. All the GOOD and wonderful people in my life intervened on my behalf. I am eternally grateful for those who stood by me and gave me a hand up. As I do this blog, I hope I can heal the worst of my emotions caused by the cruelty and unbelievable hatred spewed by others. The only reason they hated me was I was outspoken and told the truth. That isn't my monkey or my circus. I have come to realize that it is up to me to pack that shit up and put it out for the trash. I have an enormous circle of family and friends who love me and respect me. I owe it to them to honor that and remove the shroud of grief so I can enjoy the time I have left. There were times I just wanted to die and just get it over with because I was overwhelmed by all the negativity and being under attack daily. I have spent several months working on my shadow self so I can release the guilt of being the survivor. It is a lot of hard work, emotionally draining, but definitely worth the effort.
There is the GOOD, as well as the BAD and the UGLY part of life. But it seems like the BAD seems to be what you focus on.
So far, I have written only about the BAD things that happened. Now for the GOOD!
The days after my husband's death are a blur. However, some things did happen that were very GOOD, very heartwarming and supportive.
I was attacked on Facebook by his family...bad for sure. But the GOOD was the support I received from most of my friends and my family. They rose up and defended me, knowing that these things they said were untrue. I am so grateful for those who fought for me and lifted me up at that horrible time.
Months later after I recovered, I planned a Celebration of life...again attacked by his family. All the GOOD and wonderful people in my life intervened on my behalf. I am eternally grateful for those who stood by me and gave me a hand up.
As I do this blog, I hope I can heal the worst of my emotions caused by the cruelty and unbelievable hatred spewed by others.
The only reason they hated me was I was outspoken and told the truth. That isn't my monkey or my circus. I have come to realize that it is up to me to pack that shit up and put it out for the trash.
I have an enormous circle of family and friends who love me and respect me. I owe it to them to honor that and remove the shroud of grief so I can enjoy the time I have left.
There were times I just wanted to die and just get it over with because I was overwhelmed by all the negativity and being under attack daily.
I have spent several months working on my shadow self so I can release the guilt of being the survivor. It is a lot of hard work, emotionally draining, but definitely worth the effort.
So far, I have written only about the BAD things that happened. Now for the GOOD!
The days after my husband's death are a blur. However, some things did happen that were very GOOD, very heartwarming and supportive.
I was attacked on Facebook by his family...bad for sure. But the GOOD was the support I received from most of my friends and my family. They rose up and defended me, knowing that these things they said were untrue. I am so grateful for those who fought for me and lifted me up at that horrible time.
Months later after I recovered, I planned a Celebration of life...again attacked by his family. All the GOOD and wonderful people in my life intervened on my behalf. I am eternally grateful for those who stood by me and gave me a hand up.
As I do this blog, I hope I can heal the worst of my emotions caused by the cruelty and unbelievable hatred spewed by others.
The only reason they hated me was I was outspoken and told the truth. That isn't my monkey or my circus. I have come to realize that it is up to me to pack that shit up and put it out for the trash.
I have an enormous circle of family and friends who love me and respect me. I owe it to them to honor that and remove the shroud of grief so I can enjoy the time I have left.
There were times I just wanted to die and just get it over with because I was overwhelmed by all the negativity and being under attack daily.
I have spent several months working on my shadow self so I can release the guilt of being the survivor. It is a lot of hard work, emotionally draining, but definitely worth the effort.
Nov 25, 2023 10:42:31am
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